It’s Never Really Over…
I don’t want to say that I am over you
Because I’m scared to hear you say it back too
You know, I look out for those angel numbers everytime
Anything to give me a reason why I still hold on to you all this time
What a fool to think this is all over
But I know that’s not true every time I tell you “See You Later”
I still say your name sometimes
And I’ll lie if I say I don’t long for you during all those times
I couldn’t dare to look in your direction
Cause I can’t trust myself that I won’t drink again the poison
You know what’s really hard for me?
When you don’t seem to be bothered that you’ve let me free
Pretending I am not affected anymore is the only way
Maybe if I ignore them, these feelings I have for you would then all go away
11:11 is supposed to make your wishes come true
But what’s the point of that if the only wish you asked for is not really meant for you
But know that just because you don’t see me longing for you does not mean that I am not
Maybe I’m faking a smile so you don’t see that I’m falling apart
So, pay close attention then you’ll really see
How this whole thing is still not over for me
I wonder if you think about me the way I still think about you
Even if so, you and I both know you will never admit that you still do
But I believe if someone is not right for you
Then, everything they do will just hurt you until you’re finally ready to say goodbye too
Just know that I would have accepted you for as you are
Because it is who you truly are who has captured my heart thus far
This is a no return, no exchange policy…
But sadly, the transaction was declined because I couldn’t afford to take you home with me
